Touched by a dream

Today morning, I dreamt...and I was half awake when I was still dreaming. I haven't have a dream like this for so long that's saddening until it touched my heart. I didn't want to wake up from this dream but, I knew I couldn't enjoy that moment for long because it was time for me to wake up.


She is a woman whom I've never seen with my vision but I believe she has touched me with her 2 hands. I stepped into this huge & well furnished hall with grand interior setting. The first thing I saw was posters hanging on the left side of the hall bearing images of the woman. I knew who she is & I miss her very much. When I walked in further into the hall, I saw that woman in person. I was quite astonished! She was just like an usherer who welcomed us into the hall. I don't know why I didn't go to her but I walked straight into the grand hall instead. When I reached the middle, laying there was a statue. My heart softened when I saw it because after 23 years, I finally felt her real presence for the very first time! That was the moment I felt so surreal & I felt like tearing for that's the best way to express how I felt. Someone hit the lever & the statue slowly went down into the ground where it lay. I just couldn't bear to see it go when I only just saw it there a while ago...


I woke up. I sat up on my bed & ponder for a while. I felt sad first thing in the morning when I woke up today... but that feeling didn't spoil my day. I can't regret why I don't get to meet that woman in real life. I am still feeling emotional when I think about it now. And I wonder why did I dreamt of her today. It feels like there was a reason why. The woman that I am now writing about... is my grandmother. I have never met my father's parents. My mom told me stories of her... and it is a sad story. Now when I chat with my mom, once in a while it links to my grandparents when we are talking about my dad. I am happy enough to know that my grandparents got to see me before they pass away. I was just a few months old baby. At least I brought them joy when they carried me in their arms although I didn't know anything at that moment. I'm sad to say that I have never visit their grave for tomb sweeping. There was once where dad, mom, brother & sister went but I couldn't go & I couldn't remember why. I really wish to do my part as a grandchild & I shall go next year.


Dear grandma , this is how much I miss you so... :( My heart is always with you & grandpa wherever you are...


Please bless me with a speedy recovery soon.. That's 1 of my 2 wishes now.